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Wednesday, December 23, 2009Sioux Falls, SD

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I've been thinking a lot in the last week about how knowing Lael changed me. On the one hand I know that change is really hard; more often people in close proximity make us change what we do about who we already are, but there are special, lifetime impact relationships that destroy and rebuild our sense of self. My sense of self now includes father, mourner, comforter. When I look around me, I see more: the potential for hidden hurt in other people, the courage of handicapped people, the grief of those who have lost. There are darker sides to the sense of self too: emptiness, hopelessness and all the other cliches accompanying loss. No matter where I end up after thinking, I know a lot will have to do with what I choose to take from knowing my daughter.

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23-Dec-2009 | RD

Thank you D. Your observations are noted and so true, through and through. For the last several years I've pondered these same threads you've put here: "there are special, lifetime impact relationships that destroy and rebuild our sense of self. My sense of self now includes..." new ground I did not expect. ... "When I look around me, I see more: the potential for hidden hurt in other people ... and other cliches ... No matter where I end up after thinking, I know a lot will have to do with

23-Dec-2009 | RD

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